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I’m So Weak

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We make so many friends and acquaintances over a lifetime, especially with the advent of the internet/social media age. I made more connections in a year on message boards, through blogging, and networking in youth movements than I made through five years on one college campus. Seriously. And , if I’m honest, more of those discovered-each-other-through-the-internet relationships were deeper, more honest, and more involved than the ones with the people who smile, ask “How are you doing?” and go back to their lives, their homework, and their ambitions. But some of these other people…well, they were open, transparent and broken with me. I’ve had more opportunity to “be pastoral” and pray with, counsel, encourage and mourn with these online connections than anywhere else. It’s given me a wealth of experience. Much of it I wasn’t ready for or used to, but Jesus was bigger than my youthful incompetence. I’ve grown tremendously.

Some things I’m still not ready for — like when those people I’ve prayed for, spent sleepless nights talking with because they’re afraid of themselves, rejoiced with and cried with in times of change, and see some good fruit…six months or six years down the road choose an entirely different course for their life and, if Hebrews 6 is to be believed, I know there is no coming back. My heart breaks. It is broken. I don’t know how to deal with that. I don’t know what comfort there is for it, because what I’ve seen is my anamcara walk away. It’s brutal. I love them. I hurt for them. But I don’t know how to pray for them at that point. I want to show love, but I don’t know how. I can be civil, decent, friendly, and all things they themselves can ask for in a friend…but how do we show agape when they have cut off its source? I don’t know. But I want to know.
I don’t know how to deal with the heartbreak that comes with witnessing these journeys. But I know that Jesus knows what it is. He loved Judas, did he not? Lord, teach me…how can I show the love I have for those who cannot be renewed again to repentance?
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Author: Dave Ketter

I'm a Pittsburgh native who graduated from Geneva College (B.A., Christian Ministries; completed Year One in M.A., Higher Education) and is in seminary at Trinity School for Ministry. I love Jesus, love the Gospel and love the city. I have a vision for church planting and seeing the Church enjoy the unity that it owns through the Holy Spirit.

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